Moment of Weakness.

Well I am still plugging along in this bootcamp experience. It amazes me that on my 4th week I am still sore. I still am able to be pushed to my limits as well as exceed my past limits. I am still feeling good when I go even though I drag my feet each day as I prepare to go. Getting to the gym is the most difficult thing for me each day. I try to think of every excuse in the book, but for some reason they are just not good enough. Fernando will just look at me in somewhat a disapointed look and I look back at him and say "fine I'll go", and just like that I am getting dressed and find myself at the gym.

I am always happy when I go, but can I just tell you that its not easy. This blog is turning into my exercise log and I apoligize for that, but I need to get this out and sometimes it helps to know that others are reading this and can relate. I know I cant give up. I want so much to reach my goals this time around.

I did have a moment of weakness today. I went downstairs to grab me a diet soda (needed a little extra pick me up) and for some unknown reason out of my mouth comes a large soda, and a side of hashbrowns. I went ahead and paid for them and waited for my order to be filled. As I was standing there thinking about what I had just done I think to myself, what have I just done. Am I really going to undo everything I have just done the night before. I yi yi what am I thinking I dont need these hashbrowns I have already ate breakfast and Im not hungry. Honestly my mind is trying to sabatoge me. SO as I am going up the elevator I think to myself I will give them to someone. Ok lets just say I work with two guys that basically are like my little brothers that I never had or wanted, so I offered the food to them. THey are great guys and always willing to help out their big sister...lol. THey took them without any hesitation. Fewwwww I passed the test of that moment of weakness. Now I just need to keep trying to pass these types of tests on a daily basis. I hope it gets a little easier.